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Nostromo: A Tale of the Seaboard

clothing nor used water, except to snatch a hasty drink

greedily, for some forty hours. An awful restlessness had made him its own, had marked him with all the signs of desperate strife, and put a dry. sleepless stare into his eyes. He murmured to himself in a hoarse voice, '* I wonder if there's any bread here," looked vaguely about him, then dropped into the chair and took the pencil up again. He became aware he had not eaten anything for many hours. It occurred to him that no one could understand him so well as his sister. In the most sceptical! there lurks at such moments, when the chances of existence are involved, a desire to leave a correct im- pression of the feelings, like a light by which the action may be seen when personality is gone, gone where no light of investigation can ever rc.nl i the truth wlm h every death takes out of the world. Therefore, in- stead of looking for something to eat or trying to snatch an hour or so of sleep, Decoud was filling the pages of a large note-book with a letter to his sister. In the intimacy of that intercourse he could not keep out his weariness, his great fatigue, the close touc h of his bodily sensations. He began again as if he were talking to her. With almost an illusion of her presence he wrote the phrase, " I am very hungry." " I have the feeling of a great solitude around me." he continued. " Is it, perhaps, because I am the only man with a definite idea in his head, in the com] collapse of every resolve, intention, and hope about me? But the solitude is also very real. All the en- gineers are out, and have been for two days, looking

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